bukan taknak, malas ade sikit, tp yg sebenarnye tak reti

ha.......
tu la sbenanye masalah die.
bukan taknak updet blog nih. bukan takde mende nak crite, tp sbenanye tak reti la nak blog2 ni. bengap btol. aku tgk blog org lain berkilat2, berkelip2, ade mcm2 bende, ade lompat2, ade terbang2. aku punye ni mcm tanah perkuburan je kan. pastu plak ade 1 blog ni aku bukak,

......SEBIJIK TEMPLATE NGN AKU GUNE.......

ape kes. tak spesel lansong.huhu.

rase mcm nak hire sape2 tlg cantikkan blog aku ni. tp mmg org tu takde keje la kan nak tlg aku. pastu plak aku pon takde duit pon nak byr gaji die. so diam la ko.

tmbah plak skrg ni otak serabut duk pk psl pro exam. ah tak suke pk. apesal ko tetibe pk ni.hesh!

ok tu je la. nnt aku updet la blog ni.

(WPON TAKDE ORG PON NAK KESA SBENANYE..haha).

the beauty of ugliness

pergh. title mcm jendul je kan. tp btol la tu. this is actually the theory dat i've created long time ago, after living with "ugliness" for 23 years. this is my theory, so it has nothing to do with anybdy else, no offense, because all stuff here, are all about me per se.hehe.

yeah, curse me for keep saying myself ugly. most of u might think that i may be an ungrateful person, who doesnt know how to appreciate what God's gave me. but please, please, please bear in your mind, that

I AM TRULY GRATEFUL OF WHAT I AM AND HOW DO I LOOK,

and this theory that i want to share to u, shows how happy I AM for what I AM.

beauty is a gift. it may give u good-looking boyfriendS,and u may have no prob to buy any clothes or accessories (wpon beli kat downtown je pon, for example selipar roxy, it'll look like a REAL roxy). but let's take a look at the other side. ugliness also is a gift!

1. u will have ABSOLUTELY no problem to walk alone in the shopping mall, or along a quiet-nobody's there-road, because no one bother to look at u, or even to do "bad things" to u.

2. u will have no problem to stand alone in a non-woman couch komuter, with all the guys surrounding u, because they will just take u as one of them.

3. when it comes to getting friends, u surely can find them a lot and surely u ll have

good realtionships with them. y? because there's no way they would feel jealous of u, and there's no reason for them to do bad things to u, bcoz u are not capable to jeopardize anybody's relationship or status or watsoever.

4. your bestfriend would not mind to let her boyfriend to help u or to share food with u, bcoz she knows her boyfriend will NOT EVER fall for u.

5. u dont have to worry so much about your outfit, or your behaviour, (xperlu cover la pendek ceritenye) bcoz nobody bothers, even your own self. huhu

6. u will be safe from the casanovas! hurray!! (if he tries to fool u, he is a fool then. u need no brain to think that he' cheating u. )

7. u will be the strongest person on the earth, because u can easily bear with all the critics. they are like music to u. and it will come to a stage where praises hurt u!!

8. the fact that u r still single, is something dat u will not have to hide and feel shame about it. coz everybody knows!

9. when u fall for someone, n that person fall for other person, u get over it easily. because it's a predictable outcome, and u r prepared for it the moment u fall in love with that person.

10. the best part of ugliness is.. the person who really likes u or loves u, will be a very good and sincere person. because he doesnt fall for your looks, but your inner self.

(dat's y u r still single, coz such person does not exist.haha)

so... can u see that being ugly is beauty?

saya sudah ade kamera!(entri batak)

jeng3. ini la kamera saya! haha. purple pinky2 gitu. jgn jeles. haha. siyes aku batak gile nak mampos gune kamera ni. tak reti pon la, padehal nak bli yg function2 bagai. tp xpe, saye budak br blaja, so nnt saye blaja la kan.hehe.

sbenanye plan nak beli kamera baru je senin lepas. pastu mlm tu trus msg abg nak pinjam duet (haha, tak gune btol suke berhutang :p). plan2 nak g bli hari rabu. tup2 jpa plak masuk pg rabu tu. datu aku p la bli jugak en, so nmpk mcm aku tak saba2 je nak abeskan duit jpa aku.

SO AKU TAK BERSALAH SEBENARNYE OKEY!

so pasni buleh la letak gmba2 sket dlm blog ni kan. ate mcm bengap je, de blog tp tak post pape. mmg aku tapehape.. so wut?huhu. adios.

sungguh gembire hulahulahup!

ok mule2 sekali nak jerit dulu.

wooowwwwwwwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehepiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigileeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!

haha.ok dah.

ok ari ni sgt hepi. sbb ape?

sbb pasni da takya nak cover bed di ujung minggu

tak pyh kene oncal d ogac bersame dr lelaki yg spt menopos itu.

tak payah palpitation tiap2 pg sblm ward round

xpyh tgk muke PK klinik sblh yg pon mcm menopos

hurray hurray!! :)

tp sbenanye tak sure la life kat teluk intan sesenang yg dibayangkan. but i dun care. nak jugak igt sng.haha

tp ade rase sedey sket sbb tak dpt nak jumpe supervisor kesayangan..

blom pape da rindu same beliau.. aa. lesbo kah aku? takde kaitan.

terigt kate2 supervisor ku..

"jgn asik pk ape yg org boleh buat utk kite.. pk ape yg kite boleh buat utk org lain....."

hmmm.. muhasabah hari ni.

tp tanak muhasabah lagi. skrg mahu tgk cite korea baru .. my girlfriend is a gumiho.. best ke tak cite ni? nnt gue kabarin.

annyeooooooooonngg~ (tetibe je ckp korea)

meroyan cite korea

nak tgk cite korea!

nak! nak! nak!!!!!!!!!!!

nak tgk sgt3!!!

sekian terime kasih.

the second tears

ok, the title might sound like a broken-hearted love story of mine, but, fortunately it's not. hehe.

wpon aku menghehe tp aku sbenanye sgt hampa n frust la dgn diri sendirik. once again, it has something to do with O&G. oh God, tlg la,awat la miserable sgt O&G ni. astaghfirullah.

sbenanye, wat petame kali dlm sejarah dunia, telah aku menangiskan diri dgn teresak dan sgt buruknye di dpn supervisor aku sbb telah direpot as a student with a bad attitude by a lecturer. ok tanak cite lelebey sbb mende tu da setel da.

then i continue behaving badly today (sbb tlg la, takde mood da ngn O&G ni), i came late for oncall at OGAC. sbenanye dlm hati mmg rase gundah gulana, tp tah mane dtg setan kurita (padehal sume da kene ikat tp ttp nak salahkan setan boleh tak?huhu) mcm menghasut2 aku utk tetap memalaskan diri. so i decided to came after berbuka. dtg2 je trus kene marah ngn registrar yg berkenaan, siap nak halau, tanak sign logbook (which i dun care),n ugut nak repot supervisor (wadehek..NOT AGAIN!!). aku terkedu kedan la kat c2. taktao nak wat ape.. i just proceed je oncall kat c2. wat muke tebal amik bsp patient, wat urine dipstick..at least i gain something la. takde la kene maki je. still clerking the patient n try to present the case even though the reg asik2 mcm tanak dgr. tp seb bek ar staff nurse sume baik2 je.. bukan yg stok muke belacan je tgk student. so aku cube la mentabahkan diri kat c2. at last aku stay la gak smp kul 12 lebey.

so aku rase aku mmg dilahirkan utk menjadi skema dan "jughuh". buat jahat kompem kantoi. oh tlg la O&G. rimas sungguh!

aku dan O&G

Assalamualaikum . salam sejahtera. Salam satu Malaysia. Ecece. Bajet cam BTN je.

Okey, tao tao.. da lame tak update blog ni. Terigt kate2 sorg member baik..

“ aku yakin blog ko ni bertahan sebulan je..”. hakhak.. dasar mulut masin punye member. Tapi takpe, blog ni takde la mcm nasik kan, kalo basi da kene buang ke hape.hehe. at least boleh la nak update bile2 mase wpon seribu tahun akan dtg pon. (bajet cam dinasour lak boleh idup lame2 centu)

Ok la sbenanye nak share kisah suke duke bersama salah satu posting yg plg ku TAK cintai, pendek cite paling benci ar., iaitu posting O&G. sape2 amik medic mesti la spt memahami mengape dan betape membencikannye posting ni. Ah benci benci. (emo tak?). tp yg pastinye sbb aku benci la ari2 tgk bahagian2 yg tak menarik tu. Fine. BENCI.

Pada suatu hari (sambil angkat tgn ala2 karam singh).. berlakulah satu peristiwa yg mengharukan dan menyebabkan aku suke la SIKIT kat posting ni.

mase tuh kul 2 lebey. Time yg patotnye aku duk berkeliaran dan berpure2 bz di ward. Tp aku mls nak berpure2.so aku pon g blk bilik utk membuta. Tuh la pertame kali aku wat jahat spnjg posting. Slalunye aku mampu je menghipokritkan diri smp ke pukul 5. (ok, tak bangga pon crite mcm ni,malu je). So as I was sleeping mcm tanak bgn2.. tibe2 dpt a msg.. and best tak best.. msg tu from my supervisor..

“ aslkm Aisyah, pls call me at ****. Thanks.”..

wallawey! Babun pon tak tekejut mcm aku time tu. Prof soh aku call no extension die gune tepon ward, padehal aku tergolek2 kat blk camano den nak tepon ntuh. So, aku pon berlari2 la basuh muke selapis je, asal ilang air liur basi.. sarung tudung, sarung white coat.. deshummm aku berlari2 ke ward. Adeh, ni mesti prof nak wat teaching ar ni..padehal otak aku time tu mcm tetinggal je kat atas katil. Smp2 ward, aku pon tepon la Prof.

“ prof sorry I was late, saye kat blk td.”- nmpk tak kebodohan aku menjujurkan diri?..

prof pon ckp… “ hah? Kenape awak balik blk? U shud be in the ward!”..
aku pon sengih2 kat tepon tu bajet mcm Prof bleh nmpk dan menjawb..

“ balik jap je Prof, pastu saye nak dtg blk “ cm tipu kan..tp btol la aku mmg nak dtg blk. Tp part blk kejap tu mmg tipu la.haha.

‘”hmm.. Aisyah.. aisyah.. ok la.dtg blk saye kejap. “

Aku pon lega..n ckp.. “ok Prof.c u” n letak tepon.

Elok aku letak tepon…tetibe nak tekencing la plak. Adeh la, dasar bladder tak seda dek untung. Mase ni la nak wat keje. ni kalo Prof nak wat teaching takkan nak mintak p kencing tgh2 teaching. So aku pon g la melakukan pe yg patot sepantas kilat..tp tetap dgn sesuci mungkin.hehe. (xpatot cite kan part ni..tp nak cite gak sbb nak tunjukkan betape anxious nye aku time tu)
Pastu smp2 kat blk Prof, prof ckp..

“ha, awak tgk kat blkg tu.. amik mende dlm kotak tu..”

Aku pon toleh la belakang.. bajet igt mcm nak bg soalan tutorial ke ape kan.. rupe2nye.. Nampak sekotak kurma yg berbagai2 bersama buah2 tamar yg lain.. aku pon a mik n letak atas meja Prof.

“ ha amik la, sy bg awak.”

Adoyaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.. aku duk igt die nak wat teaching. Rupenye nak bg korma!
Buat malu je tekejut mcm beruk td. Seb bek takde org tgk.
Tp aku sgt terharu la kan. Sbb Prof bg aku kurma tu. Tak pnh2 ade Prof bg aku hadiah. Rase syg sgt kat Prof mase tu.( truk tak bg kurma baru nak syg? Haha).

Prof ckp “ saya bg supaya awak tu pandai sket..” haha.. dush2. Kene batang hidong ko sebijik. Asik bengap aje. Haha. Aku pon pulang ke ward dgn bersemangat dan rase mcm nak g palpate sume abdomen , including yg postnatal pon skali.haha. tp aku tak wat la kan sbb aku takde la serajin tu. Dan hari2 seterusnye pon aku ade gak la g mmbuta kat blk lagi. Tak serik btol.

So itulah kisah yg terharu kan aku.korang tak terharu sudah. Adiosssssssssssssssss!